Okay, not that this just happened this week but oh my goodness! I think I'm going to stop looking in the mirror.  Sure, my belly pouching out is just precious, I love having a pregnant belly. But (and this is a BIG BUTT (no pun intended)- can anyone out there explain to me WHY OH WHY my body feels compelled to S-T-R-E-T-C-H  out in every other direction? Back by my rear end- the lovely padding ABOVE your butt (I call it "Hip Padding") just feels the need to STICK to my shirts and nightgowns, now. Are you kidding me? Since when do I need to grow extra fat padding? I think I have plenty to go around, thank you very much.  I am heavier than I've ever been in my life right now and boy, does it show.  My legs (the short things they are!) couldn't hold much more weight even if they tried.  I thought about breastfeeding this little one since this will be my last and I've always chosen to bottle feed, but..  Knowing I can't diet during nursing, I am reconsidering.  I know it sounds selfish, but I will have been pregnant a total of 22 months out of 26 months- I NEED TO OWN MY BODY AGAIN!
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If you could only see the looks people give me when I go out in public.  YES people, I have 3 children and one on the way. YES people, my youngest child is only 7 months old, YES people I am old enough to "do this".  Geesh! If people would only mind their own business.  I'm short, 4"11- and am told I look really young for my age (18-20).  Sure, some people might think that by looking at me- but give me a break. When I get the snotty looks I just want to pipe up and yell "I'M ALMOST 29 YEARS OLD-- IS IT ANY BUSINESS OF YOURS?"--  wait, what am I saying? I still have 3 more months "left" in this pregnancy..  who's to say I WON'T snap? ( :  That could be interesting, indeed…
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Will I ever be able to leave my house again when this little one arrives? I barely get out of the house as it is, with 3 children (hey, it isn't an easy task!). To show you what I mean, the girls and I went to the Wal-Mart Super Center here in town and they built TWO new buildings (gas station, and a  Burger King) since the last time I was there. I was driving down there and asked myself "Am I going the right way?"  That just tells you how often I see the outside of my walls.   But imagine the task with FOUR children, two under the age of 1 and both in car seats. Oh my..   will I have a life other than changing diapers? Not that I mind, I LOVE being a mommy but come on! A woman has to have SOME outside time- doesn't she?
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Will I have enough time to spread out to all my children after this little one arrives? Adjusting from my first child to my 2nd child wasn't that hard. It really wasn't.  But when I brought Aspen home (a 5 year age gap from Courtney)- it was a hard adjustment and I know the girls felt it.  What is it going to be like when this one joins our family? Will I be so stressed out from the day to day work of trying to balance it all, that I won't be able to spread my love around to each of them- as they all deserve? Will I be to tired from the sleep deprivation and all the "baby chores" from two babies that I won't be able to function for my other children? ..   I worry, and I wonder..  sure it will take time to get use to, but..  How is it really going to be?